Little Monster

12.12.11

We create our own little monster. And it scares the hell out of us.

Its all coming back again. The last time I felt this was the time that he exploded the bomb. I was hurt. Really bad. Bigtime! Feels like I was hit by my own baseball bat right in front of my face. Jeez! I just can’t find the right words to type in here maybe because I never had the guts to say the words that I’m supposed to say. Those inclined words are words that I really don’t want to type. So pardon me.

It’s been like… I dunno. I don’t wanna count at all. I’m just letting the time pass by. In a technical aspect, you as my reader can consider this as the finale of the tragic love series wherein there is really no love at all. Assumptions can kill, I’ll tell yah! There you go I was babbling again. I hate babbling coz I say things that doesn’t make sense to other people. Or maybe they just don’t understand or don’t want to understand. There’s a DIFFERENCE.

Anyway, going back to the story. Well, yeah it was not a story at all because there was no beginning and ending. People were just left hanging to what happened and what is happening. But now I want to clear all the mess that I did. Not on him but for myself. I was the stupidest girl in town you’ll ever know. Falling in love with someone who can’t love me back. I was exhausted: emotionally, physically and not to mention financially. (lols) I was just asking the man up there, why there are guys like him? Why do they exist? They should be eradicated like what the Nazis did to the Jews… or worst. FYI, I’m not PRO-NAZIS okay! I have the heart for the Jews. If all man will be like them, the type of reasoning he has, I’d rather have Edward Cullen ruled the male order instead of Adam. This may sound bitter I know. That’s why I am putting it on its end. There are things that enlightened me… showed me bigger and not-so-good picture of what possibly might happen if I continue the insanity that I am doing. Well, I am just so lucky that I have my friends who sometimes on my side and sometimes not. People who burst all the remaining bubbles I have. Thanks to that! And of course, I have my eyes. Enough to see the difference between reality and dream. I know that I’m on the losing end.. so what’s the point of holding on right, If that someone is not willing to hold on with the thread. Definitely, Its one hell of ride. CRAZY. STUPID. LOVE.

So now I am moving on. Looking for a better future. A better love. Its just out there I know and I will wait. We don’t have to create our own little monster because when they do bigger, we don’t know where we will go. Or worst, we will just let ourselves be eaten alive and suffer all the consequences it will bring. So if there’s a girl out there whose in this position right now, step out as early as you can!!! You’re beautiful and smart! You will definitely find the right Knight-in-shining armor not Tin Man. ;)

This is a major disclaimer: THIS IS NOT LADY GAGA’s INSPIRED ARTICLE. This is just out of nowhere. Like a bubble flying in the air and popped up.

-SuperMaybell-